Neha Dhupia opens up about her postpartum guilt and how her designer friends dumped her.

Actor Neha Dhupia revealed that after the birth of her second child, son Guriq, she wanted to attend her friend’s wedding in fancy clothes but ‘wasn’t fitting into anything’. In a new interview, she called out the ‘double standards’ as famous designers whom she thought to be her friends turned her down.

In an interview with Filmfare, Neha spoke about her pregnancies, “The first time around, I did go through postpartum depression that lasted 8 months. The second time around, I bounced back much faster because I knew what I was going through. And nobody else is here to decide. I had so many designers who were so nice and they were making clothes for me.”She also said, “Soon after I gave birth, I went to a friend’s wedding and I wanted to wear fancy clothes and I wasn’t fitting into anything and I don’t know why I’m telling you this information, but I had so many A-list designers who I had thought were friends of mine who just turned me down saying, ‘listen we have nothing for you’. The double standards exist everywhere. But I’m okay man, it’s a part of the game. If that’s how they want to treat people, that’s how they want to do it, it’s fine.”Neha Dhupia wanted fancy outfit for friend’s wedding after Guriq’s birth, A-list designers said: ‘Have nothing for you’I really hope that everyone who”s having issues with their body and hating it reads what I”m going to say next. I love my body now more than ever. It”s been cut open twice to give me two beautiful children – like how can I hate on it? Everything: these arms carry my children, this heart is only love-filled for my children; you know as my body has carried them. So just because I”m a few pounds heavier, how can I hate it? After two children and lots of carbohydrates; I am so happy. There”s nothing healthy in my striving towards becoming size zero. But there”s everything healthy about me striving towards becoming fit. I am somebody who”s been through postpartum depression. The first time around I did not understand it. It”s a hollow feeling” she said.

The day you give birth it”s such an amazing feeling and four days later when you come home, everyone congratulates you, and then half past 12 at night when the house is asleep and you”re the only one awake with your child endlessly for nights and nights and still trying to go to work, and then coming back and then, you know, at fittings people saying “oh but nothing”s really fitting you so maybe we should work with you sometime later”, not being sensitive towards you and then you”re still coming back holding onto that beautiful child, feeding him or her and again in the silence of the night – it”s a downward spiral but I”ve been through it and I”ve learned. The double standards exist everywhere. But I”m okay man, it”s a part of the game. If that”s how they want to treat people, that”s how they want to do it, it”s fine. But I”m just saying, I”m not the first person it”s happening to and I”m not the last person it will happen to. But don”t let these things affect you, she added.